I was having a really shitty morning. Even for a glass half-full gal like me, when I am upset at something, or as was the case today, when I am upset at a NUMBER of things, even I struggle to find a piece of good in it, or something to be grateful for in the day.
But, I try. As bloody shitty as I am.
And pissed off as I was, running around being a taxi driver, people not working with me, feeling like a failure, feeling like I had to answer to people, feeling like everything was up in the air, feeling confused, feeling AHH!…
I had a thought. And suddenly, I realised I was lucky.
Here I was, running around for baby girl.
Here I was, running around for my parents.
Here I was, with my mother-in-law who was dropping plans her own plans to help me with baby girl.
Here my sister was, helping amidst her busy family schedule, to help me, and help our family unit out.
And all of these people, who were helping me, or were the recipients of help, I realised were part of the ongoing help cycle that is “US.”
I help them often. And they help me, much, much more.
And then Freddie Mercury came to mind.
“Can anybody find me…. somebody to love?”
I had so many people to love. And they loved me.
Suddenly, running around didn’t seem like such a chore anymore.
Suddenly, running around for those I loved, no matter how trying or frustrating some moments were, and knowing that those people in my ‘unit’ had run around for me too, so many times before, and probably would until the end of time, well, it became a blessing.
And just like that, my frown turned upside down.
It’s amazing how a change of perspective can change a situation, instantly.
Now for some genius… Freddie Mercury. 52 seconds.