This end-of-work transition is taking FFOOORRREEEEVVVVEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRR.
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Is that annoying? Frustrating maybe?
My sentiments EXACTLY.
You know I stopped collecting coffee cards from my Saturday café a good 2 months ago. I did it because I was sure (ha!) that we would be finishing about June ‘time,’ as initially indicated… that is of course, after the first few dates were ‘indicated,’ and then delayed, to the June date.
It is now July.
If I had kept collecting cards and stamps for my Saturday work shifts, I would have gotten a free coffee by now.
I tell myself, there must be a reason for this. This long, dddrrraaaawwwwnnnnn out process.
So often in life we look back at an event that made NO SENSE WHATSOEVER at the time, and yet in retrospect we gain an enormous amount of clarity, insight, growth, and a bigger look at how all the little and intricate (and sometimes annoying) pieces have fit together perfectly.
I am still at that stage where I am gathering the outer edges of my 10,000 piece puzzle, and in the middle is just this whole smudge of red colour and I have no idea out of the hundreds of the same pieces, where to start.
Something like that. 😏
But, there is an end… or is there?
Mid-August now they say.
Let’s see what happens.
This morning I exited the café with my new coffee loyalty card in wallet, now stamped for one. The warmth of the cup in my hand was little consolation for the cold that abruptly smacked my face as I exited the protection of the shop. Like little pebbles of ice pelting upon my face, nose, exposed hands, the lower parts of my ears peeking out from under my beanie…
A bit longer. Keep on going.
There is a reason, isn’t it? The reason isn’t just delayed relief and release, right?
For now I can just say…
From 4 weeks away, to maybe indefinitely.