I can just as easily have named this a ‘reasons why I love living by the beach’ post with the water being a theme and all once again, but the true intentions of my writing and where I am coming from are so different this time.
Sure, it was hot.
Sure, I wanted to make the most of Summer.
Sure, I wasn’t passing up a hot day offer from Melbourne even if it meant I was alone.
Especially because I was alone. 😉
But I’ve been in a funny space lately. Neither here nor there. Thinking about life, wondering what to do, in this odd middle-ground of nothingness, where nothing is the only thing that actually happens…
Just a whole lot of thinking instead.
I’ve been coming to grips with this weird phase, reminding myself that we all go through it at certain times of life and it’s part of the whole cocoon process in becoming a new person.
To become a butterfly we must shed our shell. But we must hide out and hibernate first to do so.
Part of my quest this year, the year of balance as I’m calling it, the ‘2020’ year, is to find more time to make me happy.
You might think that is SO easy given I don’t have a job. I have plenty of time, right?
Time doesn’t necessarily equate to heart and purpose though. And it’s awfully hard to find motivation when the car that is your life stalls and has to change new tyres, and you suddenly don’t know where the tyres are coming from. And then someone tells you to not stress, and relax.
You try relax while waiting for a tyre change.
So in the meantime, I really have to do things for me.
Things that fill my soul with purpose.
Things that make me smile.
Things that I miss doing.
Things that I always put on the backburner because I need to cook/clean/make phone calls/do washing/a billion other things on my to-do list.
Going to the beach on my lonesome is just one of those wonderful ‘me’ things.
(the seagull had to photobomb my solitary beach photo!)
Firstly, when alone at the beach, I have no one in tow, and no one to answer to. I decide when I come and go. I sit on the sand for as long as I like, and I sit in the water for as long as I like.
And today, while sitting in the water and having waves crash over me… well it truly reset my car battery. 😉
I’ve written a little story about it on Instagram, about waves and life and letting go, so I do hope you check it out… you can find me under smikgwriter so give me a yell if you’re on there too. ♥