Let me tell you, birthdays can be deceiving.
There is a whole heap of expectation placed upon the ‘special’ day, to be better and greater and more superb than any other day.
This ‘deceptive’ day is placed in the same category as any large celebration, also including Christmas, Easter, and MOST ESPECIALLY the most cunning culprit, NEW YEARS EVE.
We think we must have some kind of exceptionally amazing day, and then when it is just… ordinary, at best, we feel sad.
Mad at the world.
Today the winds were raging like hell. It was cold. I had an argument with Hubbie that brought me to tears. A small one, but I was pissed nonetheless.
I spent a good portion of the day packing, and then unpacking as we came back home from our San Remo short stay.
Hubbie was still suffering side effects from the antibiotics he took after removing a tooth, so he was pretty lowly and flat himself.
We hadn’t eaten proper healthy meals in days, and felt crappy as a result.
And it was my birthday.
The expectation of amazing, compared to the dismal reality, wore me down HARD.
I did feel sorry for myself for a while. But then when I realised that a Birth-day, is just like every other day, I dragged myself out of the rut…
You see, all days are the same. Birth-days, Christmas-days, New Years-days. All require you to do something about it.
We can’t be sitting around and waiting for stuff to happen. Or waiting for people to come in and make our life and day better. We need to do it ourselves, but also be mindful, that sometimes, life goes up…
and life goes down…
and sometimes this happens on a ‘special’ day.
And that’s ok.
There was nothing remarkable about my birth-day today, and yet I spent it the best way I could, enjoying my downtime with Hubbie and baby girl.
And in the end, my changed mindset, made the day better. That’s all it was. A changed, and accepted mindset. Because I realised that although I was going to make the most of the situation in the day as it was, I was also accepting of the fact that sometimes days don’t go to plan, and we don’t get what we want, and we just need to breathe in…
and breathe out…
and say “tomorrow’s another day.”
And in the end, I ended up having a lovely day 🙂
(But just saying, I have a party this Saturday and I’m going to rock it mofos. Like, watch out).