#1548 Day 50 of getting there: a speck of light

What?

Do my ears deceive me?

Is this trickery?

Playful figures dancing around in the corner of my vision, jumping away into the shadows when I look their way?

After tomorrow, we get to have 5 visitors in our house?

5 people who aren’t from our home, get to come to our house… or we get to visit, and be part of the fiver group…

I was so happy when I heard the news today, I got teary.

I’ve grown so accustomed to me, hubbie, baby girl, Mister F and Orange-cheeks, that I kind of didn’t expect to be in the company of other loved ones for a long time yet.

But it seems, we are getting our reprieve.

Finally. Nothing can happen immediately with us all working and schooling, at home and away…

But the speck of light is beckoning…

Waving to us. 🖐❤

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#1516 Day 18 of getting there: the Autumn walk

Walking has become such a necessity in recent weeks.

Such a real, true, essential part of our living.

Which is why it comes as no surprise really, that exercise, i.e. walking, is part of the four reasons we are allowed to head outside of the house.

Essential item. Saving our sanity while we lock ourselves up from the world?

Yep. That’s about as essential as you can get.

I was in front of the computer for so long, and it was gorgeous out. After I finished my work shift, baby girl and I headed outside, around the block.

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I am still amazed at the power of fresh air. The mental benefits that a walk down a neighbouring street can bring. How passing other people out on the footpath, walking their kids, or pets, can bring such a sense of community, when we are all meant to be staying away from each other.

More than the atmosphere, I loved the conversation. Baby girl and I were yammering away about Mister F’s latest antics, what we were gonna do after this whole CV was over, and how the Easter Bunny was gonna make his way over to our side of town during the weekend.

Smiling, skipping. Like there wasn’t a pandemic happening right now.

That’s the way it should be.

Because although we should be vigilant with our health and physical boundaries right now, we should also MOVE ON. ♥

#1498 Coronavirus pep talk

At a time when there is so much uncertainty and confusion, sadness and despair, withdrawal and isolation…

There is also so, so, so, SO much to be grateful for.

I am grateful for freedom. I have the freedom and right to pull my daughter out of school, at my discretion, and have my wishes respected by the school community.

I am grateful that I can still work from home at this time of crisis.

I am grateful that my daughter will be within our home, our care, and within our sight, during this stage.

I am grateful to have a fridge, a pantry, and items that will help us get through this isolation period.

I am grateful that I have so much to keep me busy – books, music, podcasts, movies.

I am grateful to have a roof over my head – a comfortable bed, a heater, clean clothes, running water, a toilet.

I am grateful that I can pick up the phone, and be in touch with anyone in my life.

I am grateful that I can stay up-to-date on the latest updates, world happenings, and have my favourite musos sing/perform to us from the other side of the globe and keep us all happy and connected during this pandemic.

Your gratitude list may be similar or vary wildly. Either way, you can’t deny the facts…

There is so much accessible to us in this day and age. A hundred years ago and something like this could have felt truly isolating. But going through all of this, now?

We may be separated in our homes, but we have an abundance of freedom in how we choose to move within those walls.

How we choose to connect.

What we choose to see.

How much we want to know.

We have it all literally, at our fingertips.

And although sure, life is going to be disrupted, FOR US ALL…

We are all going through the upheaval, together.

And just think… can you just imagine, how it’ll be like when this is all over?

We will hug, kiss, hold hands and dance.

We will go outdoors, rain hail or shine… we will see our family and friends, hold them close, laugh together, get our hair done, get massages, do girls’ day outs, watch movies, love harder, stronger, deeper, and most importantly…

REALLY LIVE LIFE.

I can’t wait for that day. It is going to be incredible.

We can do it. Because we are all in this together. ♥

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#1496 Chocolate to get through

Day 2 for me of this corona-getting-isolated business.

But the virus had nothing to do with why I was reaching for the sweet stuff this afternoon.

My neck and back was killing me – I don’t yet have a proper desk chair for work.

I had my final assessment at work – oh my God, tension and stress eat your heart out.

And then, I didn’t get to squeeze in a coffee either – too damn busy.

I know. SHOCK HORROR.

After I picked up baby girl I promptly set about making a coffee for me, a babycino for her…

And you know, I have been good for SO LONG. I don’t really reach for anything processed or sweet anymore, really I don’t.

Rarely. That includes chocolate.

But today, I fished out a huge block of personalised Cadbury chocolate that was gifted to me long ago by a friend’s daughter… I guess it’s one of those things where it’s so damn big you put it away in the pantry, but then because it’s so big it gets slid to the side, and well…

kind of overlooked and forgotten.

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Oooh, but I found it. All this corona business had me reevaluating our pantry and fridge the other day, checking what we had, and then I saw this beauty.

I was pleasantly surprised to find that the big block had two individually wrapped medium blocks within it… to retain the freshness longer.

Yummy.

I had 6 blocks of chocolate! 6! They were delicious!

AND I HAD NO GUILT WHATSOEVER.

After this week, I deserved it.

And I am here to say, SO DO YOU.

Just do it.

Make sure you’re doing what you have to, to get through this… whatever ‘this’ is to you.

Including, eating chocolate. 😉

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#1486 Train hard, work hard

I had such a good day on Friday. Training assessment and ALL.

I was even feeling full of energy on the last day of the week, after days of tension and nerves over starting at my new job…

But that all ended spectacularly today.

I was so stressed beyond belief this morning, at the onslaught of information coming at me, that it felt like my head was about to explode.

I was so frustrated, so anxious, I even felt like crying.

You see, I was getting A, J, M, X and even 4 to the power of 11 thrown at me, but I didn’t know how to link A to B C D E F G H I and then finally J, was struggling to find the connection between J K L M, and then to find a path between M and X?

Don’t even GO THERE.

(I’m still confused about 4 to the power of 11).

But, somehow, lunch came.

All hail.

And I did what came most naturally to me. I did what helped release tension from my body, and I spoke the words that would make me feel better, regardless of the response.

“I don’t know about you, but I was really struggling this morning.”

To my relief, it wasn’t only me. Others felt my pain. I was so glad I had spoken up, while also berating myself for being so hard on myself…

I have never done this before! Hell, it was guaranteed I’d be ripping my hair out.

Words were shared amongst colleagues, and my load was lessened. And at the end of it all, I got through.

I got through the day.

And that is as good a reason as any, to be grateful. ♥

 

#1458 The power in us

Often in life we can fall victim to negative thinking.

It’s all too easy to do.

Something bad or unpleasant happens to us…

Something we have no control over…

And we cry “BOO HOO.”

We complain about things that are seemingly out of our control, things we never desired in the first place, and things that just don’t seem fair.

There will be countless times in life when things don’t feel fair.

But we can do something about it.

And I’m not talking about changing the circumstance that came to us, or even employing ways to avoid negativity altogether…

I mean, using the power of our minds to stay in control.

Because NO MATTER WHAT happens in our lives, we have the power over how we will respond.

Every single time.

You may be sad…

You have the power.

You may be angry…

You have the power.

You may feel frustrated…

You have the power.

Life is the biggest test there is, both of a physical and mental kind. We don’t know what lies ahead, but we can be assured that we will cry as much as we will laugh.

But we need to flex our muscles… our mind muscles. We need to show life who is boss, take charge of our destinies, and take on the view that challenges only make us stronger.

We can still be upset for a while, if that makes things easier… but then we can choose to move on, and choose to be the master of our stories.

A Madonna lyric asks:

“Who is the Master, and who is the Slave?”

Well, who is it?

A lesson learnt today.

 

 

#1456 Pieces of straw

It crossed my mind today that maybe I should give this whole gratitude blog thing a rest.

It was just one of those days, where everything bothered me.

But somewhere in the afternoon I found some things to grasp onto, and keep me going.

A great cappuccino made by Hubbie.

Chocolate. Many pieces.

And then one of my fave movies. I put on –

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God bless art. ALL FORMS. Within minutes I was laughing as Meryl Streep’s character Julia Child was going ga-ga over buttered fish in a French restaurant.

It is an amazing movie, and Streep’s performance is phenomenal.

I think I gravitated towards this movie, and it’s the kind that always picks me up, because it shows the two stories of women who were in a slump in their life, struggling to find a place to belong, went through much difficulty and hardships to get what they wanted, but in the end…

THEY GOT THERE. THEY GOT IT.

I really needed this movie today. I cried with happiness just as much as I did with emotion.

It was the needle that helped me get out of the stack. ♥