…or as some like to call them, little white lies.
Up until a little earlier, I had no inspirational, sunshine-y, happy-go-lucky or renewed vigour for life post to mention here in this little gratitude blog of mine.
But then, as all the other nights before it, the bedtime routine happened.
And as I stood there, counting slowly, breathing deeply, and making occasional bribes to baby girl that all her toys would be gone in the morning, in between warning her that my angry face was going to turn on soon, something suddenly occurred to me.
Just like the sun rising from the dark horizon to fill the world with light, so too did an incredible thought emerge from my fury, giving me Hope that I could remove myself from this shithole.
A bullshit story.
I’ve mentioned this here before. You know, those stories we as parents tell our kids, to get, I don’t know, anywhere?
To get them to listen.
To get them to comply.
To stop them crying.
To shop them whinging.
To distract them.
Hell, to make life easier.
“We have to leave the beach now, because it closes at lunch time. It actually closes.”
“Yes the park is also closing for lunch, everyone is going home to eat.”
“You can’t leave the house without brushing your teeth. The shop people won’t let you buy a kinder egg if your teeth are yucky.”
“Paw Patrol will wait until you’ve had a nap, and then they will come on TV.”
“You have to wear a jacket on the trampoline (in 11 degree weather). It’s the Rule.”
And we get away with it because we can.
Why do we do it? Well as you can see from the above list, sometimes it’s for their sake – cleanliness or health. Sometimes it’s for convenience.
Sometimes it’s for OUR sanity.
And tonight once again it was the latter. Because for some reason, baby girl’s room was too dark. In amidst stalling with a variety of ways to not sleep, she kept pulling this nifty excuse out of her bag of tricks. And all I wanted to do was rest, and have some kind of ‘me time.’
She has two lamps in her room, albeit battery-operated ones, so perhaps the room was getting dimmer from the gradual battery strength lessening. However when I was getting her to finally lie down, and again she complained too dark, I just ripped out –
“We can’t have too many lights, you know why? The bugs will catch us. The bugs and spiders will find us because there are too many lights. So we can’t have too many lights. Goodnight!”
And you know what I got in return?
Thank Fuck. I love Motherhood, but I also love that she is at an age to still buy these stories…
Straight up, that was my coffee experience today.
It was special because my parents have been staying with us for a little bit, and so today while out and about, showing them our ‘hood,’ we stopped for a café latte break.
Parents, baby girl, me… and Cinderella.
Because that’s how the coffee breaks are nowadays. And it’s important that I capture them as they are, now. Because these days of mini figurines, kinder surprises, play-doh creations and smiley-face biscuits, will not last forever. Baby girl will grow out of it, and soon will be way too cool for any of that kiddy ‘stuff.’
The stuff that now makes her clap her hands with unrestrained glee, a wild smile spreading across her face in the moment that she comes face to face with a little packet-ed princess wearing a blue gown.
So, it was a cool little coffee date we had. I share these moments with baby girl, but my parents being there as witness to it all, is extra, extra, cool.
That’s a coolness, I won’t ever grow out of.
Just some of my W.I.Ps today:
I’ve got a lot of baking to do for Easter which is in two days, and I was more than happy to spend my day off today with my family, on a cold and grey and not too impressive day, just baking at home.
Baby girl played with her blocks, Hubbie played some instruments… and I baked.
Baby girl watched Tangled, Hubbie listened to music… and I baked.
Baby girl lined up all her Kinder ‘surprises,’ Hubbie watched youtube videos of cars he was frothing for… and I baked.
And I really enjoyed it all:)
The smell of muffins, melted chocolate, and moulded cake pops filled the walls of our home, and surrounded by that, and my family… well I think that makes for a pretty Good Friday, don’t you? 😉
Today’s successful shopping buys at Bayside were:
- a pair of charcoal Mossimo trakkies
- a pair of hot pink Milky trakkies
- thick Winter stockings
- a 3 packet of singlets
and a collectible Disney princess in an egg that I just couldn’t live without when I saw it at the counter.
Wait. No, the above was baby girl. ALL of the above was for baby girl.
Did I buy anything for myself? Was the shopping day successful in anyway, for me???
Well I did happen across a display of Harry Potter books, and bought myself The Philosopher’s Stone… I’ve always been into the story, and have watched the first few movies, stopping after I didn’t really have anyone in my life to get excited about them with.
Also, I love the J.K. Rowling story and am as much fascinated with her rags to riches tale as I am the actual book, so thought it was time I gave it a whirl.
After some lunch of sushi rolls and rice, we grabbed some groceries, including a takeaway kinder surprise that I just HAD TO HAVE – wait, no, that was baby girl again – and also a packet of choc-chip cookies that I this time, couldn’t walk past.
We then headed towards Lincraft where we bought some shimmery blue organza for a cape to match my dress…
Nope, again. That was for baby girl, so she can fling it off her, Elsa-style, during her billion future renditions of “Let It Go.”
We ended out trip by heading out into the still Autumn sun with all our buys, and I was honestly, as happy and chuffed as baby girl was. Seriously 🙂
If anyone can find the above title anywhere on the world wide web, well I’ll… I’ll eat a whole bag of potatoes.
When an older woman, or one that has long-since passed the toddler stage, says that a moment I’m sharing with baby girl, that is oblivious to me, is actually a lovely moment, I take note. I just know, automatically, without doubt, SHE IS RIGHT. I don’t question her one bit. I stopped that, a long time ago.
Today a woman noticed I was having a sweet moment with baby girl.
To me, it was just a normal moment.
I was grocery shopping with baby girl. Often, she likes to help pack the plastic bags with whatever fruit/vegetable we need. We had already put about 8 apples in one bag; now we were on to the potatoes.
I took the bag, holding it open, and passed her a potato of my choice from the high display, to her hand below.
“Here you go.”
She took the potato from my hand and plopped it in the bag.
“Here’s another one.”
Again, she took the potato from my hand, adding this one to the bag.
This continued until we had about 7 potatoes. I lay the bag in the trolley as I tied it up, looking up to see a woman standing by, waiting to access the area I was blocking off.
“Sorry!” I said, moving forward and pushing the trolley onwards.
“That’s ok,” she replied with a smile. “It’s actually quite nice to watch.”
She nodded towards baby girl, and I smiled.
“Thank you, that’s very sweet of you.”
I moved off, feeling proud as punch. What an awesome Mum I was.
She was also there when a moment later baby girl had a hissy fit because I placed her kinder surprise incorrectly in the trolley: it was a millimetre away from the bag of capsicums, instead of being directly aside the bag of capsicums.
Sorry baby girl, I was a whole millimetre off.
So today, a woman noticed I was having a sweet moment with baby girl.
To me, it was just a normal moment.
But from now on, I will never pack potatoes the same way again.
Gratitude in my heart, always 🙂
Today was the second session of kinder where I left baby girl and… ventured off by myself for a couple of hours.
They have been staggered starts to help her settle into the whole kindergarten ‘flow,’ (not that my cheeky monkey needs to go into it slowly, as she charges without hesitation into the playground, touching everything within reach) and next week will be the big one, where she will be there for 5 hours. This will be the norm, week in, week out.
What does one do with oneself after 3 and a half years of raising a princess, where the only time you have to yourself is when you are working, and when you are sleeping (and let’s face it sleep provides no guarantee EVER of peace, especially with kids).
What do I do with myself?! For 5 freaking hours???
Why… EVERYTHING. Starting with hitting the Main street.
I have been putting off buying presents for some people in my life, and I am seriously late in buying these, because baby girl makes it so interesting for me when I try to buy anything that isn’t a toy, or a kinder surprise. So the first thing I did after dropping her off, was go mad on the shops.
I bought all 4 presents that I was planning to. 3 shops for that. Success. Then I decided to do some ‘me’ shopping.
I mean, really, I still had to buy one book present, so technically it wasn’t like I was actively searching for a book for myself… but when a book practically jumps out at you, you have to buy it, right?!
I purchased the above book for myself, and the Farrell’s bookstore was running a freebie where you could pick up a book containing sample chapters of upcoming releases…
Free book you say? I can’t believe the sales assistant even asked “do you want one?”
So, I’m pretty happy. I ticked off some to-dos, indulged in some ‘me’ time and browsed some beautiful shops, and the photo above makes me so happy because it is representative of all that is yet to come.
Satisfaction. Joy. Simple pleasures.
Appreciation. Yay for this time in my life :):):)