Today, while not feeling too happy, baby girl rested on the edge of the table, trying to get a peek at my face, downcast and heavy.
“Mama, what’s wrong?”
I sniffed. “Mama’s sad.”
I sighed. The sigh we adults make when we can’t explain. When it is too heavy for 4 year-old naïve and happy ears. When we want to explain, but can’t find the words.
“I’ll tell you about it one day. It’s ok honey.”
I continued my despondent stare, as she followed with “Ohhhhh.”
Then suddenly, she ran off.
She brought back her toy ukulele from her play area, stood right in front of me, and proceeded to play.
“Mama, me make you feel better.”
Words can’t describe the rush of love, gratitude, passion and deep acknowledgment I felt when she said that and started playing her instrument. They were just strums on a toy, but it was the most sincere, heart-felt and beautiful music I have ever heard.
How could my heart not burst with joy? How could this loving action not override my sadness?
Then later, when I was on the couch still looking sullen, she went “I know I know!”
And she jumped in front of me, pulling funny faces at centimetre distance.
I couldn’t help it. I cracked up. My tears of sorrow turned into tears of laughter as she changed her faces to silly and crazy and funny again. I laughed again and again, marvelling at the beautiful and meaningful intention of baby girl to be so eager to see me smile again.
There are things I get down about. But today, being the recipient of my baby girl’s love and care, loyalty and devotion, well I felt so special. So important. I realised that although there are things getting to me, I was given an angel a long while ago, an angel to look after me and pick me up, make me smile and keep me going when times get tough…
And that angel is my beautiful baby girl. At only 4, she has more of a caring and sincere nature than many people my age. She is an extraordinary soul. And although there are things, like any human, that get me down…
I need not fear. I need not worry. I need not cry. Because my angel is there beside me, playing her ukulele and pulling funny faces ’til I get through… ♥♥♥♥