I’m finding that a lot is changing.
Lately, many things seem final. Ending. I remind myself that it is simply the natural order of life for things to be constantly moving and in a shifting state – nothing ever stays the same.
Even love grows.
But the feeling is still bittersweet. Especially when the door closing is to see the back of someone who has helped your family so much.
So much change. So much moving on. Today my heart was overcome with sincere gratitude and thanks, while also deeply affected by this next chapter in our lives, for a dear individual who has helped us for years now.
Sometimes, it’s not us who wants to move on. It’s not them. It’s just life, doing what it always does.
It’s a process we all have to adhere to.
I find the timing most interesting. How so many things seem resolute and final, all at once, and the most fascinating thing of all?
To be standing in the middle of it all, with utmost alertness, watching it unfold.
Completely aware. I go by each day like this. My ears attuned to every conversation that passes. My eyes go through all of life’s details. I decipher dreams, remarks, people, places… ALL OF IT.
To be totally aware in the middle of change is a truly wondrous place to be.
And once again today… there was release.
Once again, I was caught in the deluge. It was while was driving in my car, back to my parents house after being at the hairdresser’s. I saw it start to come down slowly, then more quickly, leading to a rapid downpour, all in a manner of seconds.
And meanwhile I was in the car shouting happily “Come on, give me more!”
There’s some link here, something between the release of rain and the always changing nature of life.
December rain… summer rain? Closing doors, but perhaps better rotating doors?
Moving, sudden, release.
Ahh, that’s it.
Change can come swiftly and without warning if you’re not aware. Watch your windows carefully, because when you’re not looking, rain can come pouring in.