Spring is the beginning of many things.
Growth. Renewal. Sunshine. Greenery.
It just so coincides with a decision I made only yesterday, on the first day of it, to do something new.
To look after myself.
I’ve been on a bit of a journey, a spiritual awakening of late. My normal awareness of mind, body and soul has skyrocketed to another level.
In turn, I come to the conclusion that, like my Mum always says “you are your own doctor.”
I am my own doctor.
We know, intuitively, what we need. No one else can really tell us that. Even if we do learn something from an ‘authority,’ really, something inside of us has been trying to tell us that all along… give us worldly signs… throw our body off-kilter so that we take notice…
Even, send us dreams.
There is always something there, something trying to get through.
It’s just whether we are allowing ourselves to listen or not.
I’m not going to do anything crazy. I just have a heightened awareness, and in order to nourish my body, in making mindful food choices and trying to be more active, I will also be doing things for my mind, and my soul.
Music – I find it so therapeutic, and I am actually going to be singing/dancing on my own for at least 5 minutes a day. TRUE STORY.
Laughter – nothing makes me happier than when I find a new comedian via youtube, and I sit there almost crying for about 5 minutes straight.
Nothing crazy. Nothing unattainable.
Most of it, free.
I am going into this realistically. There are days I may not be able to do much on my list. I will forget and let go of those days.
Then there will be days that I smash it out of the park. Those are the days I will use as fuel to push me on and keep me going on my improvement pursuit.
Just tonight I sat down, for like 2 minutes because that is all I had, to do some yoga moves…
Baby girl found me.
And she saw the book I was working from, and wanted to do yoga too.
They actually do yoga in her class. I wish I was in prep again.
So I let her. Old me would have been slightly annoyed to have lost my ‘me time,’ but new SmikG said ‘let go’ and breathed in and out as deeply as I could.
Watching her do the ‘cat-cow’ as we both went on all fours, made me smile.
It threw me off my yoga focus… but I was laughing. Relaxed. Wasn’t that the point?
Yep. It sure is.