I thought it was something entirely different when Hubbie announced today:
“Something’s at the door!”
I glared at him. Unfairly. Because a couple of days ago, I had told him that if any large-ish type parcel arrives, it is likely baby girl’s birthday present and we need to move it to a hiding spot pronto.
She gets excited about parcels, even if they aren’t for her… so it was of vital importance to hide it immediately.
After I finished glaring at his vocal announcement, I went to the parcel and saw…
My name, and baby girl’s name?
From my sister and fam?
Oh. Whoops. (Face palm).
Instead, it was an early birthday surprise.
It was so unexpected. It was early, but it came at the best time. I’d been feeling rather ‘blah’ about everything, so to sit down with baby girl (after apologising to Hubbie 🙃) and start going through the packages, well it lifted us right up.
Baby girl got some really cute gifts, and was absolutely rapt with his big girl make up/beauty case she got… and I received some really lovely and ‘me time’ gifts… a moisturiser, beauty bag, jewellery stand…
But the best gift of all, hands down, were the words.
The words in my sister’s card got me, good. I read it silently, and soon found the tears just flowing down my face.
Then, I was sobbing.
It hit me. Hard. I’ve known and been well aware that August was gonna be different this year. Hell I even forecast it as far ago as June, before this second lockdown…
But I didn’t know how hard, and how further isolated, we would get.
I am a party person. We are party people. We throw birthdays. We have people over. We go out. We entertain. And the only other time that I have not had a party for my birthday, was when I turned 30…
Why not, for such a big birthday, you might ask?
Well, because baby girl was born on that day. 🙂
Kinda a big reason.
This year, there is no good reason at all. I mean, corona is the reason… but it’s not a nice reason we’re missing out, is it?
Reading my sister’s sweet and heartfelt words, it just really hit me. I couldn’t contain the emotions anymore. The missing out.
The missing them.
The missing everyone.
The missing everything.
I am okay. I will be okay. And we will make up for this one way or another.
Today, I am so grateful for those words. Those words made me cry, but really, they lifted me today.
They reminded me that I can do it. I will do it.
We ALL will do it. Because there is so much happiness awaiting us on the other side…
It’ll be like magic when we get there. ✨✨✨