It was the perfect day…
It was cold.
It was dreary.
I was under the weather.
I had a sore throat.
I was tired.
I was uninspired.
And all I wanted to do was curl up into a ball…
Yes, it WAS the perfect day…
To stay in and watch a movie.
The combination of wintery conditions, and a tired mind and body meant it was ideal weather to just curl up on the couch with a tea and watch something for a couple of hours while baby girl was at kinder.
The only problem was, I couldn’t quite curl up on the couch, as the DVD player in that room has started playing up. I couldn’t put in a DVD loaned to me by a work colleague, with the risk that it wouldn’t come out, much like the current scenario and baby girl’s Moana being lost in there?
So I improvised.
I went into her play room… grabbed her bean bag… brought her small art-y table close by to me, and plopped into the player Dead Poets Society.
I think it’s been in my hands for at least 6 months. Maybe even close to a year. I seriously can’t remember. I know he didn’t expect me to return it immediately, but at the same time he doesn’t talk to me much anymore so maybe he thinks he’s lost it for good.
Oh LOLS. If there’s one thing I am, it’s an elephant. I don’t forget. I don’t keep people’s things.
I needed some thoughts of inspiration and meaning. I sat with my tea and a cherry Danish on the table beside me (alongside baby girl’s own tea set)…
And proceeded to get lost in a fine work of art by one of my favourite actors, Robin Williams, for the next two hours.
It was certainly an interesting film. It made me want to read more poetry. It made me want to go and live life to the fullest even more than I already try to do.
Robin Williams’ teacher character tells his students that they are little more than worms to feed the earth in future years, leading to his main statement:
Seize the day. Make the most of what time you have. Live your passion. Don’t follow the path well travelled – forge your own. Love and the Arts are notable pursuits.
And one of my many fave quotes of his from the film:
“No matter what anybody tells you, words and ideas can change the world.”
It was a sweet, funny and passionate movie, but one also starkly true and grim about life’s pressures, taking a sad and horrific turn right near the end, leaving me going “No!” I didn’t just spend the last two hours of slowly-building inspiration for this?
But then there was the promise of something learnt, of not all lost… of Hope… and that reminded me of my own book, where I pretty much do the exact same thing.
It was a lovely afternoon which I spent not doing much at all. In a week where I have felt bombarded and overwhelmed in all avenues of my life, with just too much going on all at once, I needed a moment, an hour or two, to not tend to any of those things… and just take some time out, to do my own thing.
To find inspiration and the meaning of life again.
To remember where I am.
And to remind myself of where I am going.