I had many options.
1, I could wash those growing stacks of dishes that had accumulated in the sink throughout the day.
B. I could write, in any of my writing projects – just pick an avenue: book review, journaling, updating my SmikG page… I would not be bored.
c) I had emails to send, and phone calls to make, regarding our upcoming kitchen reno project.
8: There were also messages to be sent out, to various professionals and also close friends.
Z – I could even dedicate some learning time to baby girl, or break out the sports bra and Zumba away.
But I chose to do NONE of those things.
I looked out at the GLORIOUS day, as Macklemore sings it, and also, baby girl’s new favourite song to sing…
…and I thought, how could I possibly stay inside on a day like today? I had to shirk all my responsibilities and to-dos, and do something else…
I don’t just love coffee. And aside from baby girl, my family, and shopping, and heading outdoors, and looking at sunsets and dancing in the kitchen, there is something else I love, that I don’t get to do as much as I wish to, but it will always and forever remain an intense, deep, reliable, faithful LOVE of mine.
I took a new book from the bookshelf that I hadn’t yet opened, and sat outside on our bench, the afternoon sun warming me right up as I turned a couple of dozen pages.
Baby girl found me and brought out a sticker book, sitting on the concrete before me and getting to work.
Sure, she interrupted my reading every 30 seconds. Sure, at the beginning I got up more than I was sitting down and enjoying the moment, either to help her or get ourselves some sunnies and hats for protection.
Sure, it wasn’t ALL peace and quiet.
But sitting there with my girl at my side, the sparkling water before us, and with Spring putting on a quite stunning show, I felt so relaxed. So at ease. And so ‘me’ again.