I don’t know what YOU think, and what the general consensus, if any, out there is of me… but this gratitude thing doesn’t always come super-easy.
Sure, I am able to find happiness in smaller things, and that I attribute to being so self-aware. I am aware that outside of our square worlds, there are lost lives; damaged lives; sad lives; sick lives – and so the littlest things, the smallest joy, the slightest thing to put a smile on my face – well that makes me happy.
It isn’t always so easy to find new and novel things though. Come the colder months. The day to day. It all rolls from one to the next – in fact, is there anything discerning from one 24 hours, to the other? Unless you make a concerted effort to find an event to focus on, that’s all your days will amount to… one long 168 hour week.
Monday. Tuesday. Wednesday. Thursday. There’s appointments. Classes. Kinder. Buy groceries. Make lunches. Wash dishes (repeat by a trillion).
The monotony has my mind asking me several times a day… “what will I write about today?”
Think of what to make for dinner.
Dinner time prep.
I started on dinner tonight. And I found gratitude for a moment of it. A moment that truly represented where I am in my life right now.
Chopping vegies. Baby girl was nearby colouring in, her textas and pencils and crayons spreading out to the greenery that was going to go in the steamer soon.
I had Ricky Martin’s self-titled album on. One of my faves, and yet I haven’t listened to it in yonks. And then, you know that moment, when a song you love, and yet have forgotten about, comes on, and just BLOWS YOUR MIND?
Be Careful (Cuidado Con Mi Corazon) – Ricky Martin and Madonna.
It was never released as a single, but the music and lyrics of this amazing medley by two of my most favourite-st of artists, is just… magical. It’s haunting, romantic and dark, a truly unique collaboration. I started to sing along as I cut my cucumbers, with baby girl in the background telling me about the plot in Beauty and The Beast.
“If I could reach out to you…”
“Mama! Old lady comes to Beast’s house…”
“Yes sweetheart… take your head, in my hands – “
“Me not scared of old lady. Me fine! Old lady make prince into beast!”
“Yes honey… kiss your eyes, sing you to sleep – “
“Why Gaston want to kill Beast?”
Sigh. “Because Gaston is upset that Belle loves the Beast. But Gaston wants to marry Belle. It’s not nice that Gaston wants to hurt the beast… Here’s my heart to keep- “
“Yes, very cheeky.”
“Please be careful…”
I actually found it funny rather than frustrating. And it’s all about perspective and gratitude.