I’ve survived 41 days…

I’ve survived 41 days…
It can get boring and monotonous and tiring, doing what I do.
But I remind myself of all of the beautiful things from my corner of the world.
Like tonight’s sunset.
Even if I can’t be out there right now… I can admire it from in here. ππ₯²π β€
Number 1. After a not bad block of sleep to start the night on Friday night (about 2.5 hours) baby boy continued the trend and started Saturday night/Sunday morning with 3 hours 20 minutes! Yes! πͺ
Number 2. We had another group of friends come over to meet our baby boy, and it was a beautiful afternoon that we shared together. The catch-ups are well and truly beginning. β€
Number 3. After meeting in bed (once Hubbie had put baby girl to bed and I had put baby boy to bed), he told me that as he kissed her goodnight, he’d told her that she was being amazing and “doing a great job” at home, helping us, despite the often trying times.
And she’d whispered back to him “you are too.”
Awww. β€π₯°
Then he told me that I was doing an amazing job too, before I told him that HE was doing an amazing job supporting us all, and then we closed our eyes to sleep.
Happiness Sunday. πβ€
I definitely feel better when I have something to look forward to, someone to see, somewhere to go. Sleep or no sleep (obviously sleep PREFERRED π) it’s these things that keep me sane and moving on, keeping on.
I headed out with baby girl and baby boy today. Just to the Main Street, to check out some stuff, buy this, see that. It was a bit nerve-wracking at first, since baby boy cracked it as soon as we entered the shopping centre.
But I had my helper, my mini me with me. πβ€ She was there to help me out, push the pram, pass me this, hold that down, so on and so forth, so that baby boy eventually went down for a nap in the pram and we got our shopping done.
It was made more apparent to me how much I relied on her, and what great support she was to me, when at the start of our shopping trip we got into the lift with another mum and her toddler in a stroller. She heard baby boy crying, and said sympathetically “poor baby.”
I told her that we were still in the newborn stage, and she joked she didn’t miss thst time at all (who can blame her?) before telling me I was doing well to be out at all, that she’d be too scared to have done the same.
It was baby girl’s support. She made all the difference. β€π
I don’t know what I’d do without her, where I’d be. π (Not at the shops with a 5 and a half week old, that’s for sure!)
37. That’s how many days I’ve survived this newborn phase.
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Aside from the intense screaming and crying…
Baby boy had a photo shoot today. Swaddled in blue, it brought out his beautiful eyes, and it’s something I’m trying hard to hold onto as I enter into the most intense newborn period.
People keep telling me it’ll get easier… meanwhile I’m just finding it harder and harder.
But, blue eyes. Beautiful blue eyes. ππ
I’ve been sharing a lot of coffee posts latelyβ¦ and you gotta understand, it’s this simple thing that has me looking forward to something, no matter how small it may be to others, lately.
But today’s morning coffee was something else.
You see, when I was pregnant (and for years before that) with baby boy and Hubbie and I would frequent our usual Wednesday brunch spotβ¦
We’d see prams, EVERYWHERE.
Mums and prams, mums and prams. Hubbie would joke they needed more prams there because it wasn’t the most spacious cafe to begin with, and so we said once our baby arrived, we would add ours to the mix too. π€£β€
So happily, today was the day we returned there, to have our usual Wednesday brunch, and add to the pram club. π
And add to it we did. I squashed the pram between our table and another’s and I even had people get up and move when we got up to leave, so tight the front of house is!
But we were there. We came back.
We did it. We came back with our precious baby boy in tow, and if you’d been privy to all our conversations before I fell pregnant, you’d know how much today meant to us. π₯°β€
These moments I love. πβ€
I lay on the couch, eyes closed, with the faint sounds of Oscar nominees being called out from the nearby TV.
I was trying to do the good thing and sleep, because baby boy was asleep. Trying to switch off from the outside world, when every bone in my body argued it didn’t want to, I’m not a day sleeper.
But at this stage of my life, I HAVE to.
And then the winner for Best Actressβ¦ “Michelle Yeoh.”
I nodded to myself, pretending I wasn’t listening, knowing full well she was a big contender leading into the awards. I know this because when you sit on the couch and breastfeed for so long and so often, you hear a lot of various news, both factual, worldly and celebrity.
I felt the beginnings of light sleep start to tickle my senses, but so too did the winner’s words, as they crept into my sleep space.
“β¦And ladies, don’t let anyone tell you that you are past your prime.”
To loud cheering applause, and a sleepy SmikG who had to smile in appreciation and agreeableness.
If anyone knows about the Indian Summer, it’s me. πβ€
“Singin’, don’t worry, about a thing
‘Cause every little thing, is gonna be all right.”
56 weeks ago I went to a pretty local lookout, took a photo, shared a song.
I know this because my insta account told me.
Tonight I played the same song. To think what I was worried about then, I have now, and what I’m worried about now, I would have killed for then, but also, hopefully, I will haveβ¦ soonβ¦ very soon.
“Singin’ sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true
Sayin’, “This is my message to you, whoo-hoo.”