The savior of this lockdown number 6 for us will be, coffee, cake, and walks.
I felt like a semi-trailer rammed itself into my head today. All of a sudden after breakfast, bang.
I felt flatter than a pancake.
The feeling of sadness just overwhelmed me. All that talk yesterday about taking a path less travelled to feel better?
Well I had no motivation to get up at all, much less follow a different route.
The day was grey. I am 100% certain that there won’t be any lessening of restrictions next week, which leaves me to ponder, how much longer can we live like this? How much longer can we take?
Then there is the book I’m reading. Without too many spoilers (I will post a review in due time) I am charging through it, both because I really want to know what the big horrible secret is, but also because I can guess at it and it’s so traumatising that I must finish it quickly.
All of this was really messing with my head, truly.
After lunch, feeling some mojo start to come back, I insisted on leaving the house.
Baby girl and I walked the Main Street, where she had ice cream, and I got a big cappuccino and cookie.
And we just walked. There was nowhere to go, no shops we could enter. We bumped into her school friend, and it was SO NICE to see someone we knew. I started a full on conversation with a man as we were waiting for our coffees, so strong is my desire to connect and talk to people, even if I’ve never met them before.
He responded happily. He is feeling it too. We all are.
The house is wearing me down. It’s my solitude at night, but during the day, I can’t take it.
I need to get out.
The gentleman I spoke to told me his daily ritual, and I have to say, he’s got it spot on. We gotta do what we gotta do, even if it costs money, even if it puts kg on our bodies, even if we get super cold…
But he’s been getting a coffee in the afternoon, a cake, and then heading down to the local beach (also our local beach) to watch the seagulls.
Huh. There you go. A pretty cool ritual if you ask me, seagulls and all.
My kinda different path today, led me to a different person… that makes me think I must speak to strangers more. 💖