Another lockdown birthday, and yet the surprises, presents, messages, phone calls, serenades and dedications kept me warm and fuzzy from all winter colds and extended lockdown news, keeping me so busy I could barely keep up all day.
But it was even better, because I celebrated it all, times two.
Baby girl and I share our birthdays on the same day. We did what we could, walked the almost empty streets, ate lunch by the water in our cars, and got some takeaway cake, ice cream and coffee.
It was a super splendid day, and you know what?
At a time when things have felt really super shit, I’ve questioned a lot, felt withdrawn and upset by lots in life… this is what I needed. A day where I really truly, felt the love.
I felt it all, and it was so warm, so caring, so welcoming. I was truly humbled to tears.
I know, no matter what life throws at me, there are people out there who care about me.
And that matters more than anything.
Reach out to those around you, let them know how you feel. You don’t even have to wait for their birthday… you may not know how much they need to hear your beautiful words. 💖💖🙏🙏
We need to surround ourselves with feminine energy.
As a woman, it is intrinsic to our wellbeing. To our survival. To be able to motivate ourselves, go on and go on, reach higher and further than we ever thought possible… we need to surround ourselves with yin.
But… it has to be the right yin.
Find it in your mothers, your sisters and your daughters.
Find it in your cousins, colleagues, those you meet on the street that you connect with instantly.
Those that you see and go “YES!” I feel you.
Find it in your friends. In the friends that you’ve known for so long, the ones that there is no pause for breath, the friends that can support you and help you, leaving you feeling full to the brim with love, laughter and constant memories.
Today I felt supremely lucky that amidst all this recent lockdown business, we were still able to go out and celebrate a dear friend’s baby shower.
I think we were all super excited, you know, being out of the house and socialising. 🤣
But mostly, seeing the love growing from the depths of our friend’s belly. 💖💖
See these flowers? They look fragile, pretty and at the mercy of the lightest breeze.
Yet look deeper, and you find an inner, unshakeable strength, so strong that the harshest rains, winds and heat cannot shake it.
That is yin. That is feminine energy. Going with the flow, but standing strong and proud from within.
And I know how to tell if you’re with the right yin energy, the right people.
I had a consult today with a man from this publishing house.
It was regarding my manuscript that I had submitted for a competition a couple of months ago. Though I wasn’t on the short list of people who won the prize of professional development for their manuscript, I had purchased the feedback component where I got some positive and constructive thoughts on my YA work.
Before the session, I had been really idle, patiently waiting, not feeling any urge to re-work it or do anything proactive like that.
I was just watching the box, so calmly.
But after the consult? I felt like this:
The box had exploded! My mind was buzzing! More more more my body told me, the words and thoughts of the story and what I could do just whirring around in my mind, to the point that I had to sit right down and do something about it.
Enter draft #546, or something like that. 😂
I love the passion and resurgence of emotion that has awoken in me, and I sure as hell need it as I go through the work of re-drafting, yet again.
It may seem tedious to some, but as Liz Gilbert would say, it’s my flavour of shit sandwich.
So many memories and people come to mind. I think of catch-ups with my friends, where we’d meet for sweet things and laugh wildly when we all ordered ‘The Hot Ball.’
I think of Hubbie and I in our pre-wedding days. I even had a delicious stack the day before my waters spontaneously broke with baby girl, so any pregnant ladies-to-be can take that to mean you might go into labour if you eat some of their pancakes* (not professional medical advice!)
But mostly, when I see this image, I think of my sister and me.
From as young as I can remember, she would take me to the movies when I was a kid, and then naturally, a visit to The Pancake Parlour would follow.
We would talk about the movie we’d seen, what we loved, and our conversation would naturally flow to everything else in our lives, as these things do when you’re with someone you love and feel so at ease with.
And we would eat, something sweet.
The joke goes that she would be finished with her dessert, and I would be barely half-way through, talking while eating so slowly, scooping the ice cream from the bowl like I had all the time in the world.
We were super lucky today, as baby girl and I got spoiled by my sister for a movie date! The special surprise was my nephew, baby girl’s ‘bestie’ coming along for the day, and we all headed to the cinemas to watch the very sweet Spirit Untamed movie.
But, there was a further surprise after it!
OF COURSE! Pancakes. 🥞🥞
The tradition lives on. 😊😊
And even better, we could enjoy it with our kids, and engage in some fun and especially beautiful bonding time.
Guess what? Things haven’t changed much.
Sister finished first again.
I came in about third, or equal second…
And baby girl hasn’t fallen far from the tree. She hasn’t fallen far, at all.