Cold air. Walking in gusts of wind after the car broke down yesterday. My nasal passages and head searing and pulsating in pain.
Hot. Cold. Hot. Cold.
Jobs in, jobs out.
To-dos, to-dos, to-dos.
Money in, money OUT.
Responsibilities IN… responsibilities IN.
Hot. Cold. Hot. Cold.
Stress in, stress in!
Also, pregnant, and needing a f*&#ing break.
This afternoon, my body had enough. My head was going to explode. After all today I woke feeling worse than any other day. Still had to go into the cold to see baby girl off for school (Hubbie took her) then later on went outside to see the tow truck take away our car, but of course this was EXACTLY when blistering arctic winds came and decided to pelt down around me.
Right at that moment.
So of course I’m sick. I reached a point of no return this afternoon, and I lay on the couch.
One hour. First pain, then relaxation. Hubbie came home early. Started dinner. I lay there. The house warm. The wind still whipping and howling the bricks outside.
I don’t know what it is, but I’ve had some kind of cold-hayfever hybrid these last couple of days.
Head cold, nose dropping like a tap at times, sneezing. I know we whinge about the weather, A LOT here in Melbs, but I swear to God this is no exaggeration:
I wholeheartedly blame Melbourne weather.
Everywhere I turn I hear of people catching something. And how can you not be sick? One day we’ve got the air con on and visiting the beach for the first time, sweating under doonas overnight…
Then the next we’re rugging up in jackets and shivering and putting on the heater because apparently winter never actually moved on, it just lay dormant to tease and torment us into a false sense of security before f$%*ing everything right up.
We had a family member’s house to go to tonight, and I honestly didn’t know how I would cope. At times during the day I sneezed so much my eyes went watery, used my fair share of Aloe Vera Kleenex, and my nose-head area was pulsing and feeling the pressure more than Mercury and Bowie.
Of course we notified said family members of my current state, and they were still happy for us to come.
And then that thing happened, where my symptoms went on pause for several hours.
You know how you tell someone you’re under the weather, but then you see them and suddenly there’s no sneezes, drippy noses or clutching heads? 🤦♀️🤣
(I mean it’s great, but you look like a bullshit artist).
It’s like your body gets distracted and puts a hold on things.
I don’t know if it was just focusing on something else, being in a different place or what, but for about 4 hours tonight, I was good!
Sure, it only lasted 4 hours, but it allowed me to have a somewhat good night despite my head and nose. 🤣😫🤧
Last week, heater. Even, colds, or something was lingering in our household.
Today, HEAT. It was glorious, but it’s come on quickly so there has been some very sudden adjustments.
But there was a moment of symmetry today, that really made me think…
Because it was sunny, ALL DAY. I do a little walk near the school before pick-up, so as I approached the lolly-pop man crossing, a strong clap of thunder threatened from above.
What? Thunder? Sure there were clouds up there, ominous too, but it was sooo warm!
Surely there wouldn’t be any rain on such a gorgeous day. Not here anyway.
We got to the car and all was good. Mondays we go straight to swimming from school, because baby girl has a class at 4pm.
We were in the car and suddenly, I could hear spots on the car. Some massive drops appeared near the open window, and we quickly closed it.
OK, sure. There was some light rain passing. That’s all it was.
But these drops, they were BIG! They were thick, they made an impact when they crashed down.
Within minutes, the sky was dark and it was pouring. We were driving and marvelling how we had been so hot and bothered only minutes earlier, and now we were driving to swimming and we were literally swimming in it ourselves! We had to do a dash inside, getting splattered with heavy raindrops all over, and we just kept shaking our head at the craziness of Melbourne weather.
But… later, it made me think.
Earlier today, I had sent my manuscript off to someone… and this manuscript that I have slaved and stressed over for weeks now, well it has a scene in it where the rain comes down hard and heavy out of nowhere…
And I went huh? What are the odds?
I don’t know, but it felt awfully coincidental, symmetrical, super weird, that we were kinda acting out a scene from my book, on the day it went out to… someone.
What are the odds?
Rain is release. Letting go. Things getting unveiled, brought to the surface.
This morning for brunch, I had a delicious vegan crumpet stack with chia raspberry jam, coconut ice cream and biscuit cream.
The air was cold, but the sun was shining bright on this last day of Winter. 🌞
Hubbie and I also had lunch in the sun, out on the balcony. It feels like the longest time since we’ve done anything like that, it’s really been so cold and miserable out. But I had a summer hat on in the bright midday sun, and we munched away under the rays. 😎
I am so emotional at the moment. I cry at the drop of a hat, for sad, for happy. Feeling my eyes well up with tears is a common occurrence.
My bump is showing more. 😁😁
And on this last day of Winter, I have one thing to say to it…
We were feeling a little unsure about it all, because firstly it’s been freaking cold. You kinda wanna save your leave and your getaway times for when it’s warm, and frankly it’s just been shithouse.
But as soon as we got here this afternoon, through the traffic, the gloom, the wet gravel-y roads, we kinda gasped and immediately didn’t wanna leave.
I think I can safely say that any property you hire via the dayget portal is going to be amazing. From my first experience holidaying here with some friends way back in the day, to then 7 years ago now when we first took baby girl (😲), to now, every single time we have been here in one of their different properties, we’ve been super impressed.
We want to take all the furniture and styling ideas home. It’s truly a beautiful place, and the greenery outside is so peaceful and stunning.
We can’t wait to properly sightsee amongst the sunshine tomorrow. 🌞
Baby girl started coughing on Sunday, and I started FREAKING OUT.
Because it’s lead up to birthday week, we kept her home, in case… I’d rather her stay home all week and be well enough for her weekend party, than to get her to school and then there is no party.
Having said that, the days of sending your kids off to school with a sniffle and cough are long gone. It is just not acceptable, and frankly it is better.
Her nose wasn’t just a sniffle though, and her cough wasn’t just a cough. It wasn’t covid either (been there, done that, and the RATs prove it). Her nose was running like a tap yesterday, and her cough was so dry and persistent, I was just staring at her thinking, “this isn’t happening.”
Today was a much better day, in SOOO many ways. She slept ’til 11am! And her sniffle and cough are so far subdued from what they were yesterday, there was no question in my mind that she would be returning to school tomorrow.