It had been a big, fun, full day. From a sunny day enjoying the warmth, walking our cat on a leash outside (yes, a leash), baking up some Easter treats, and then enjoying a birthday with loved ones, it felt like we had done it all and in turn, were getting tired by days end beyond belief.
It didn’t affect the volume in the car though.
Like one of our favourite Prince songs, we were almost “Delirious.” Talking over each other as we drove home from the birthday, music blaring… I was surprised my ears weren’t ringing as they usually do when people started shrieking.
Hubbie changed the radio station while we were in full force. He heard the notes of something, and exclaimed “Oh I love this!” I recognised the same song he did, and we were both disappointed in our realisation moments later, when it turned out to be a recent slow song.
“Oh, I thought it was Jewel,” he said. He didn’t even have to tell me that. I had heard the same parts he had identified. We started talking about one of her earlier songs, and then the ‘mistaken’ song in question, Foolish Games.
Have you ever forgotten about a song you loved so much, but then as you start singing it, it ALL COMES FLOODING BACK TO YOU?
I l♥ve those moments.
I’d remembered, that I had known the song so well. It was a slow song, a sad song, but one that told a story, a story so precise and real and true, that there was no doubt in my mind that Jewel HAD lived this tale, the images she sang were so real in my mind. They were poignant, and they were raw.
In my effort to recall it all, I tried my best to hum the first notes, the gentle piano tones rising up and then down, and then –
“You took your coat off… and stood in the rain. You were always crazy like that.”
I smiled at him, excited that it was starting to come back.
“And I watched from my window… always felt I was inside… looking in, on you.”
Meanwhile baby girl was starting to complain that our soft notes were too loud for her. This from the girl that had made me turn up the volume to 20 and “open the windows!” when Body by Loud Luxury came on. Oh, please.
But we continued. I paused as I tried to remember certain words, and then Hubbie would jump in, filling in my blanks.
Me: “You were always the mysterious one with, dark eyes and …. careless hair, you were, fashionably sensitive, but – “
Together: “Too cool, to care.”
Oh, it was great. We were literally pulling the words out of our heads as the music played between us, unspoken. We got all the way to the first few lines of the second verse, and then majorly stalled. I knew for a fact that I loved the second verse best, and yet I couldn’t remember it.
Thank God then, for youtube.
Hubbie pulled up the video clip on my phone as we drove. We sang along and happily filled in the spaces where we had stopped so suddenly before. But it flowed of course when she sang it, like we had never forgotten it at all.
Then Hubbie found a live version where she well… kicked it out of the ball park. She sang the melancholy song with such sensitivity, range, emotion, and passion, that really… WOW. Effortless yet powerful, all at once.
Here are the beautiful and poetic words…. and with it, that live performance of Foolish Games from 1997.
I think we will be playing a lot of this re-discovered song this Easter long weekend. Enjoy 🙂
You’re always crazy like that.
And I watched from my window,
Always felt I was outside looking in on you.
Dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive
But too cool to care.
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather.
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees, and…
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You’re breaking my heart.
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.
Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.
You loved Mozart and you’d speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar.
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself.