I feel obliged, to justify myself.
Even though I HATE when people justify. Because when people justify, they aren’t trying to convince you…
They’re trying to convince themselves.
Like, stop making excuses for whatever it is you’re making excuses for. I once told a serial justifier, to stop justifying themselves, THAT’S how much I can’t stand it.
And yet I find myself in the same predicament today.
Having to justify myself, to you.
Or me, I guess?
That’s the state of our hyper-alert, alarmed and aware world at the moment, isn’t it?
Because even though it’s been 3 months that I’ve –
Seen my family.
Gone anywhere AT ALL.
Oh, just grocery shopping…
And today… it was 3 months ’til we’ve been to a shopping centre!
Yes, 3 months, as of today. The drought was broken.
I was second guessing this morning… Like, should we? There are 5 reasons to go out amidst these ongoing restrictions, and heading to a massive shopping centre… well maybe if I tell you what we got you can decide for yourself how ‘essential’ the trip was.
Hubbie got new work jeans.
I needed new jeans… I’d worn in the last ones and they were literally bursting at the seams.
We needed new pillows.
A small toy for baby girl (because entertainment, and sanity?)
And also, Hubbie got some Michael Jordan clothes, like the rest of the world has gone to do after watching The Last Dance, such was the low stock we experienced in the sports store.
So all in all, it was’ kinda,’ ‘sorta,’ ‘not really,’ and ‘absolutely’ essential shopping…
We were amazed at the volume of people. Just astounded. There were actually droves of people everywhere, and the 1.5 metre rule was out the window… people didn’t care. You were lucky to get half a metre of space between you and the next stranger, change rooms were open, and people were so nuts they were even brushing past and making physical contact (shock horror!) as they flew around.
Where are the restrictions? Not at Chaddy today, NO WAY.
Were they doing ‘essential’ shopping? Should I even be questioning them at all when we were there ourselves, adding to it?
Have we been too strict all this time? Or are people letting go of the reigns, and letting the horses roam the fields big time now that cases are starting to stabilise?
This will be up for discussion in a future Friday night conversation, to be sure.
I still don’t know what is acceptable, if we should’ve gone, and if any of this is worth it. If any of these restrictions are worth it when people are congregating together despite the rules.
Despite the rules, we still applied hand sanitiser, at every twist and turn. Entering a shop… exiting a shop. It was everywhere, as well as two tubes I had in my bag.
As we said before we left the house –
“If someone looks at you, sanitise.”
“If someone smiles, sanitise.”
“If someone looks like they’re going to fart, sanitise.”
We did it all day long.
And how can I forget the most important purchase today…
Two new records. Two new albums to add to our slowly growing collection, and two musical artists/bands who I admire with all I have.
Now that, is for the soul. That IS essential.